March Newsletter

It’s been a very very long time since I have felt the energy to put out a newsletter, but now feels the right time to emerge back into being more visible.

Image by Kelly Sikkema

It’s not like nothing has been going on over all this time, you might know, if you’ve tried to book a one to one client session with me, it’s not always easy to get a slot.

On a personal level it seems I’ve been busier than ever; I’ve done much deep work and soul searching in an attempt to orient myself, and my inner truth and sovereignty in the new paradigm of life on this planet at this time in history.

My apartment has been redecorated, upgraded and spruced up, and my husband and I are in the process of buying some land to build an educational health and wellbeing centre and regenerative market garden – no small endeavour and a whole other story for a different newsletter.

Workshop offerings have been a different matter. Online offerings I have never been able to get my head, or my energy around, I would sit down to organise some, but my heart and my head could never get into it. So I just followed where the energy took me for doing my own workshops online, and that wasn’t anywhere at all when it came to group online work.

I participated in a couple of online courses with very mixed emotions; it was fairly easy to organise from the comfort of my own home, walk from kitchen to office chair, turn on computer, beverage in hand, ‘sloppys’ [clothes] on, and great to connect in some ‘extra terrestrial’ way with others and be doing some CPD. Yet I couldn’t help feeling a deep sadness and even anger, within my system at the requirements in the times that meant this was the way that was made necessary by circumstances beyond my control. It’s not the same as meeting in person – and to be honest I just didn’t like it, for so many different reasons I will not get into here. Harrumph!

The energy that I felt though was exquisitely juxtaposed with a deep wonder and marvel at the solutions that emerged, and continue to emerge from those circumstantial requirements. That life finds a way and creativity and ingenuity springs forth when society is faced with challenges and problems to solve is encouraging and heartening.

It gives me hope in these times that we find ourselves in, as a world with such enormous and diverse societal questions and conundrums to deal with around how we are to continue to live on this planet and be in this world as humanity with a future, and what might that future look like?

Once again I am filled with an almost overwhelming sense of mixed emotions around these questions; buoyed by the seemingly natural organic nature of emergence in these movements for change, and saddened at the radicalisation that some of these solutions appear to create.

It’s like being on an internal roller coaster of hope, elation, wonder, awe, grief, sadness, bewilderment, paralysis, enthusiasm, creativity, connectedness, disconnectedness, polarisation, anger, despair, love, peace, trust, hope…… I can hardly keep up with myself sometimes!

There seem to be so many more questions than answers in the world at the moment. As humanity, grapples with different solutions, to new and emerging challenges, alongside old and continuing questions, it would be easy to approach them with the same thinking that got us into the problem in the first place. I have found myself falling into the same trap on a microcosmic level in the personal too, attempting to solve a problem with the same thinking that got me into it in the first place. We have to remember here though, that the ‘thinking’ that got us into ‘it’ may be an ancestral inherited pattern that we have been unknowingly entangled in and not conscious at all.

Thankfully, with my capacity for a systemic overview, I have been able to take an alternative view of some of these challenges and be curious about them from a different perspective. To be curious as to the real problem the issue emerging is trying to be an answer for, and open to a possible solution from a systemic perspective that could be different from the one that I might be entangled with. In this way the system has the opportunity to transcend the old patterns to meet the emergent future, resourced and ready to make space for something new and exciting to surface.

As a systemic practitioner I am aware of the presence of an attempt at a deep healing movement in the system, when difficulties within emerge. When things become uncomfortable, or ‘functionally dysfunctional’ behaviours (said this way because everything in the system is information and the system is seen as a ‘whole’ even if it appears to be falling over) occur, there lies an incredible potential for healing and the chance that something could be different becomes inherent.

Holding the consciousness that the solution is often contained within the problem and the system itself and just needs to find a way to surface is what makes systemic constellations such a wonderful tool.

It is simply Systemic Wisdom made visible….

We may find ourselves in uncertain times; not knowing which way is up, faced with our mortality as an individual and humanity, each of us being called to search deep into our soul to our unique truth and sovereignty. May each of us be resourced in our journey, may we be strengthened in our body and soul, and softened in our hearts, as we step forwards into a new world of possibility and magnificence.

Namaste fellow travellers



Do check out my in person workshop offerings for 2022. No current overseas travel I’m afraid, but when the time is right I’ll be back.